Alright I know – I’m terrible at this blogging thing. So tomorrow I go back to the nutrionist (to be called ‘R’) and I have an appt with my therapist (we’ll call her ‘K’). I was told to bring my favorite photo of myself to our session, so we can discuss it as an exercise…. This will be interesting because my favorite picture is my headshot that was both shot professionally and photoshopped professionally. Gee, I cant fathom why it might be my fav… I’m sure she’ll have a field day exploring why the photo that I like the best is one in which I look perfect, because I paid people to make sure I looked that way and that I only truly feel like people see the “real me” when I have been primped and primed by make-up artists and hairstylists. Blah blah, psycho-babble… Blah blah… blech. I’m also a little peeved – I had another therapist that I’d been going to for a while and she was awesome – but today when I was at the doctor’s office ( where my original therapist – we’ll call her ‘L’ also worked ) I asked to meet with her and they told me that she was no longer there. And due to privacy rules they couldnt tell me if she had forwarding info. I’m bummed about it cause she was cool.
So next topic – the nutrionist – I havent lost any weight since I’ve been on R’s meal plan. I’ve actually been okay sticking to it – mostly. As I mentioned before she’s got me gluten-free etc – so we dont really have any bad stuff in the house and everything that I’ve been eating has been from her list ( unless I was out in town working on Sinterklaas, i’ll explain later ) and I haven’t been able to master the “eating schedule” she wants me to do… I’m a little frustrated with myself – but I also know that I did really well on the Weight Watchers point system – which definitely flowed better with the way I tend to go through my day – I was using the WW plan while I was in CA and sitting at the computer all day long gave me the opportunity to really track my points accurately – I tried to do it here at home but found it hard because I’m not sitting at the computer for 7 hours and there’s no room in the fridge/freezer for the WW meals, which is what I stocked my fridge with in CA – Mom was paying for me to do it here at home but money is SO f*cking tight right now. That’s another thing – I’ve been waiting a month now to find out if I will actually be recieving unemployment. I’ve been filing every week like they instructed me to but there seems to be no movement. I was seriously excited and then seriously bummed when I stopped by the ATM the other day. I went to check my balance and it was 669.73! A miracle – I thought “Looks like unemployment came through!” (the amount the NYS Labor Dept said thay would give me if I were to recieve benefits would be ~ $300.00) So naturally I thought the ball was rolling and I’d finally be able to start paying my own bills with my own money – but when I called the bank to find out who the money came from, it turned out to be a mistake. My mother deposited her paycheck into my account instead of hers, so now there is like six bucks in it. I really just cant seem to get ahead, at all.
The big positive thing this past month has been the annual Sinterklaas event here in Rhinebeck. ( http://www.sinterklaasrhinebeck.com/ OR http://sinterklaasrhinebeck.blogspot.com/ ) – I’ve been working on building, restoring and creating puppets with two very cool people ( Sophia & Alex ) for the starlight parade that happened on Dec 5th – this is reason that I’ve not really been on the computer all that much – It’s really worn me out, but working on it was AWESOME and gave me a little insight as to my physical and pain situation regarding looking for a job of some sort… I’m thinking something that’s only 1 or 2 days a week that doesnt require me to stand up for long periods of time – I could handle it at the workshop so I could probably swing an office job or small shop where I can sit when there are no customers… which reminds me – I need to print up some of my generic job apps and few resumes to take with me into town tomorrow so I’m a peace out now. Night.